Friday, April 30, 2010
@ 8:43 PM
did you ever wanted to be in this life together or did you plan to kill my heart...... having a night sleeping just dreaming of you feels so dam good but having sleepless nights really is just sad i dont know if the reason you gave me was an excuse or you really had no choice everyday upon seeing you it just makes my heart sink...... i dont even want to go near you fearing you'll get upset everysecond of my life after that day is really bad dont like going anywhere dont have the feeling to eat anymore being to stressed with everything trying to fake a smile infront of others is really hard having my friends to cheer me up am i giving them a hard time??? doing work and suddenly thinking of you losing evrything in 1night dont feel good in anyway feeling speechless all the time seeing others in a happy relationship makes me think of things that i dont know if would happen again dont want to let my family know about anything stressed out need to go somewhere to let everything out but where? feeling like going on a holiday alone with no one to borther or bother about me life's turning sour what should i do now? this is really very wrong ....... its a life of bitterness wit no happiness.....
my day was still very upset didn't want to go to the canteen to see her alwalys walking away from her so she wont be unhappy looking at people trying to woo her such as edwin makes me sink....): looking at others around you makes me jealous the exam went so wrng cause i kept thinking of you it went really bad after school you guys really helped me but it dindn't help much i dont know how to express my feelings to anyone theres no one i can talk to that can really help rather be at one coner for days without anything away from the light and just thinking the amount of preasure that school my dad my mum my aunts and uncles give me the stress you give me the stress everyone gives me makes it difficult for me to handle everything nobody ever said i wanted to give up but i just cant handle it but if you dont want me to give up say something encouraging and not ignore me you dont even want to be friends you just treat me like what you'll leave behind after you move out of your old house everything is screwing up im trying to save my life and i cant let out my troubles to anyone not my sister brother mum dad relatives and i dont think i want to tell my friends, dear all friends around me please dont speak of anything that involves this i really feel very bad i dont want to stay at home maybe in school is the best place im ending her..... bye..... iloveyou hope you'd reliaze that you love me back one day......bye...
Thursday, April 29, 2010
@ 6:56 PM
today like usual sad day not happy at all she just ignored me the whole day went so far away from me on purpose than at recess i tapped her she ignored me i said goodluck she ignored me she never cared about me i dont understand why she loves everyone more than me i fee like im at the bottom of your list i've lost all my confidence in everything im in great pain you once said do you every care about others feeling sometimes i wonder if i do but now i cant think of anything strait for exam compo i wrote question 2 and it was about how we met how we fell for each other after reading it i just stared there you'll reply eveyone's sms in the whole wide world but never mine my heart was so hurt seeing darren and his stead so sweet so happy whole day was really bad but now i cherish some of my friends more than i did darren jina wei de caleb tan sharon and laura you guys really help me you guys dont avoid solving my problems but join me in it really thank you man and woman's you talked about my problems with me it really helped while abit but im still greatful thanks alot but to her i dont know what i can do im so stressed out my family my studies you and my life has really gone wrong.....): iloveyou.....
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
@ 10:24 PM
nobody know the pain im going through now my family doesn't know my friends doesn't know but i wonder if you do everyday the amount of pain i go through no one but me knows but everytime i see you that pain ereases itself but now that you're gone i cant bare with it anymore.......... i cant hold back anymore im in too much pain not in pain with you but something else no one will know about the amount of pain stress and family problems one can handle i only know its harder than it seems i look happy but if you're a true friend you'll know how i really feel..........
today go school bad mood cause of something that happen last night whole day so sian dont think i should see her cause it will just ruin her mood so far no one noes except darren hiaz dunnoe what happen); than whole day in school so bored going off le would blog tomorrow byes
Monday, April 12, 2010
@ 6:43 PM
dont know what to blog about....
